Dawn of a new day

Hey all,
sorry I haven't posted in a while life tends to take over when you least expect it. India's 6th birthday has come and gone, She had a small party of only 3 friends but she loved it. I do volunteer at her schools library, and I do enjoy it. So does she and Shane (who goes to the same school). On Monday Sage will turn 16 (my whimper here), On the one hand I'm happy for her but again my baby is growing up and already planning to leave the nest.. NOT FAIR and I'm so NOT ready to let her go. I think she's hoping to have a car. HAHAHA.. although she will be going for her license soon.. again mixed emotions.. The kids are all in school. I did alright with them going back. mostly because my antidepressant effexor worked REALLY well. I quite it cold turkey it was a couple of months of hell. 3 weeks of nausea, vertigo, migraines, weakness, and emotionally i was a wreck. I would obsess and cry, scream, giggle, I almost checked myself into our local nut hut. But I'm doing much better now. At least according to everyone else I am, I guess I agree. It's nice to have real emotions and not a shadow of them.

I had one of my craft shows on the 15th, It was good. I had the whole day away from the house, which is always nice. I have 2 more I believe one on the 5th of december and one on the 6th. hopefully I'll make a little money. Speaking of money, so far no job. I've applied everywhere, but i guess i have no skills anyone wants plus no one wants to give moms hours. So not sure where i'm going to go from here.. maybe i'll go back to school (although i may be to old :)..) I'd like to look into vet tech or something similar. I want to work with farm and big animals. problem is no school in maine for that.. I either have to do it online or move south. not sure what to do.. leave it to me to choose a difficult path.

My grandfather visited which was nice, I haven't seen him in 6-7years. It was good albeit to short. I worry that it may be the last he's in his 80's and lives in Minnesota, i live in maine. Difficult to travel and visit in this day and age.

My studio's finally getting organized, I can finally reach my looms. Maybe now I can finally start to weave again. I miss weaving, the whole meditative state of it. Another thing I realized how much I missed doing after the effexor left my system. I missed weaving, knitting, I've also started wanting to work with my stained glass again. I haven't done that since being pregnant with India so about 6-7 years absence from it. oh well so heres the update. I'll try and keep up better..

rambling...

Hello everyone.. So I know it's been awhile but here it is.. My kids are back in school, our family is going through highs and lows. We've had to like many americans in this day and age has had to TIGHTEN our belts. And at the WORST possible time I'm thinking about going back to school to be a veterinarian tech. Not only is it a bad time moneywise but I've got a 15 y/o who will also start college soon and she doesn't want a "cheap" school she's looking at ivy league, like harvard, bowdoin and such, AND she wants to be a doctor. I'm so proud of her. She's on the field hockey team, robotics team, and honor student. But she demands SO MUCH of herself.

As for me my life is going through so many changes. my youngest is now in school, i've been a stay at home for the last 8 years and I think I'm going through a midlife crisis. I just have NO IDEA what to do with myself or even completely who I AM as an individual my identity has been so wrapped up with my kids and husband. So now I'm going through a few growing pains (feeling mildly like a teen again). My husband is great when I try to explain it. And he's all for me going back to school. oh well I need to do stuff around the house.. so more later...

moving on

Well we've kind of moved on from sadness. We got 2 new kittens they are working out well. sage named the orange one Nicolai and the white one is named Kia (shortened from Cayenne).

Yesterday we went to New hampshire in the white mountains and went hiking to a waterfall, unfortunately in the pouring rain.. it was a 20 min. hike one way. the water fall was very worth it. Can't remember the name of it right now. We were drowned rats by the time we got back to the truck. When we left half a mile down the road was dry as a bone. So than (since we had no change of clothes) we went to wal-mart in N. conway and bought new outfits for everyone. told the kids that they were school clothes. :) didn't expect to pay all the extra money, but oh well. Than we decided to go to the Kancamangas Hwy. We went to the lower falls and I have pics of that as well. It was good and we all had fun.. We were all exhausted by the end of the day..

Today were cleaning.. yahoo..

sadness

So this morning we lost our kitten. Unfortunately it was my youngest who accidently killed her. India was coming outside and callie was trying to come out at the same time. She didn't see the cat and slammed the door, on the cats neck. So this morning all the kids are crying and were going to go see the other kittens to get a new one. May not be the right thing to do but what is. India and Shane are crying themselves sick, and I told them the new kitten won't be Callie but they still want to go. More later..

Well I picked up 2 and caught holy hell from my husband. what to do. I guess I need to take one back. one's orange/white we called him Nicolai and the other is grey/white and we named her Cayenne or Kia...

We finally gave her a name

It's Callie, Callie Cat, or CC.. She's a lively little critter.. The kids are obsessed with her. I'll write more later..

new family addition

I did something crazy.. Not only do we have 2 BIG dogs we have 5 angora bunnies and now I came home with a kitten. Tell me am I a little glutten for punishment. She's a cutie though she's calico and only 8 weeks old or so. Right now were trying to get her and our dogs to accept one another. Knock on wood they'll accept each other otherwise we'll have to find the kitten a good home.

I worked at the farmer's market to day in Steep falls. Our group Saco Valley Fiber Artists have a booth there. It was me, janet, and Su. We didn't sell much but it's nice to get out and have some fun. No kids for a little while and hanging with friends. (and bringing home a kitten)... I'll post a pic of the kitten as soon as I can. Oh well thats it for now.. More later...

Ebay

I put a bunch of my fiber on ebay and it all sold.. I'm so excited. I'm always afraid of posting stuff because you never know if it will sell or not. and then your stuck with the fees. I also sell on etsy, yarny goddess, a local store called Leapin' Lizards and I do craft shows. I'm so behind on orders right now. When I go to bed my mind goes nuts with what i need to do and should do that I barely sleep. It's frustrating at times, but all in all I seem to thrive on it.. oh well just a little blurb today, I need to go and clean house.. be back soon..

Some weekends

Some times weekends can be crazy. My husband and our friend lived up to the "redneck" definition. They decided to "cut" down a tree with a chain (linked not saw) and a dodge durango. They actually did it with no damage to each other or anyone but it had it's hair raising moments.. That wasn't enough they then had to level a shed using the vehicles. I and my friend Sue, had a yard sale. We made a few bucks, but gave ALOT away. We had one woman come with a little boy, his dad sent him with nothing not even a tooth brush and she was low on money so we gave her grocery bags full for a dollar. Another woman came and she does foster care we gave her 2 big trash bags for 5 dollars.. Like I said not exactly a big money day, but we did feel good about helping people a little. I also worked on some of my weaving..

I did a little destashing with my fiber stash this weekend as well and placed them on ebay. I decided I probably wasn't going to use those ones and I wanted to make more room for roving and yarn that I know I'd use.. I'm trying to get my studio into better shape, we've been working on it. Somedays I wonder if I'll ever have order to that room.. Just figured I'd do alittle updating. :)